Lost

As the tears roll down my cheek,

I wonder how did I let it get this far

How did I allow myself to become this person?

I feel as though I lost all control of myself

And I cannot regain it.

I am not this empty shell bent on trying to fit in

I am supposed to be better than this

I am supposed to be unique

Yet here I am bending to the will of others

In a desperate attempt to have friends

But again I am left friendless

No one wanting to keep in touch

No one caring how my day went

Just me, Danika and Natalie

Three parts of the same disassembled whole

Only you

I used to think that out of the six billion people that lived on this earth

There must be at least one that fully understands you

Someone who knows why you say or do the things you do

Someone who doesn’t judge you but instead gets it

Someone who never has to ask how you are feeling

Because they just know, they know you

Inside and out

They fully comprehend you and don’t mind when you show your crazy side

Because to them you are just you and they wouldn’t change a thing

They accept all your faults in fact they love them

Guess I was wrong because no such person exists,

People always judge, tell you what’s wrong with you

Why can’t they just understand?

The only person that understands you is you

So stop searching for that person to sweep you off you feet

And start learning how to land on your feet when they drop you

Just Because

I had no idea the impact you would make in my life

You make me feel like no one ever could before

It surprises me how I never noticed you were right here

You are the epitome of my happiness

The base of all my new hopes and dreams

I don’t think you can fully comprehend what you do to me

The butterflies in my stomach are hardly enough expression

My mind races as your touch gives me chills

You make my heart flutter with each kiss

And I cant help but never want the moment to end

You bring so much joy to my life

And I cant help but be selfish and hold on to every second

Never wanting to lose this sunlight in my valley of darkness

You have lit a new path that I dare not stray from

You have broken me out of the shell I have so long hidden in

You are my guide to happiness and I will stick by your side